Trying to blog in 2 spots has proven difficult but as I realize that Christopher needs to hear his story so do my girls. This year will be a year that I will want to hold tight to. It is a year of transition. Just as all great chapters come to an end, so there will be foreshadowing as some parts of our lives wrap up and transition into new roads.
This year at Women to Women our theme is TRANSFORMATION. God knew when He wrote that word on Suzie's heart that it wasn't just for her or me. I have heard some amazing stories. Yet, I can't help but be a little selfish and think, yes indeed that word was for me in a more powerful way. From the outside, I can appear put together, strong and driven. On the inside, I still struggle with some of the fears and insecurities of my childhood. I can't believe I'm in my 30s and still believe I will be rejected by those who love me. I tear up when I think I have let someone down. I get angry, I'm selfish, I find jealousy welling up within my contentment. Oh, but to have children and get called out from behind my insecurities on a daily basis, I daily find myself being challenged to break free from the grip of the sins that entangle.
I am striving to stop and listen. To look up from my task when my name is called. To ask questions. To seek ways to serve. To pursue others. To think the best before thinking the worst. To spend more time with the Author and Perfecter of my faith.
I have a long way to go to break free from the cocoon and become the butterfly that God sees in me, but
"Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen."
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