Downcast Spirit Lifted

How easy it is to have hurt feelings sometimes. Tonight, I am finding myself very hurt. I think in the moment, she was angry with me and meant to hurt me a little. But if she knew how her words made me feel right now, would she have ever written them down? Maybe, in her defense, they weren't written the way that I read them. I doubt it. Does she hate me? No, I know that's not true. Is she angry? Yes, I know that's true. In her eyes, I let her down. I should have followed through on a task. But, really, in my defense, I didn't have the same time line that she did. We weren't on the same page. Her priorities were not my own. They never have been. 

Words are powerful. They can build up. They can tear down even faster. As I sit here, wondering if I should just let it go or if I should talk to her, I can't help but feel a little saddened that this is how my day could end. Hurt, bitter, angry, defensive. 

But it won't. It's God's time to work in my heart. I have been praying for her - one who has no future hope, one whose worth lies in the fleeting things of this life. I am sorry that I let her down. But more than that, I am saddened that what I didn't do put her in such a horrible mood that all she could think to do was to lash out in angry words. 

My day will end in compassion, love, kindness and humility. My day will end with a lesson reminding me of how powerful words can be and a warning to use them carefully and wisely. 

Ecclesiastes 12:10 Words from the mouth of a wise man are gracious, while the lips of a fool consume him.